Wednesday, July 19, 2006

That's it -- no babies for me

I can't fucking stand it -- I'm going through menopause. Blood tests came back normal for everything but FSH, which is at *60* (normal high is around 30 at midcycle, apparently)! What the fuck did I do to deserve all of this?!!!!!!!!! I can't even begin to process all of this. I just can't believe that I'll never have a living baby. There are no words to describe how devastated I am. Stunned, kicked in the gut, yet again. Except this time there's no hope of a happy ending...
:: posted by Ann Howell, 3:54 PM

15 Comments:

It just doesn't seem fair. You've been through more than your share of pain and heartache, why can't it just end? Is there no justice in the universe? I just don't get it.

I wish I had the words, but I know there probably are none. I'd give you a big hug if I could.
Blogger onegreyhorse, at 7/19/2006 4:50 PM  
You've been through so much. I'm so sorry. What did he say? Is it really the end of the road?
Blogger MB, at 7/19/2006 4:53 PM  
He wants me to get another blood test to confirm the results, but it's pretty conclusive. The lack of a period coupled with hot flashes and this high reading... it really can't be much else.
Blogger Ann Howell, at 7/19/2006 5:02 PM  
Wait - can you get a second opinion? Can stress affect this? If stress can stop periods, it should be able to screw up other stuff too, right?

I hope this is all a mistake.
Blogger lorem ipsum, at 7/19/2006 5:48 PM  
Oh i am so so sorry...it is competely unjust. I second lorem's advice of a second opinion, though. I am hoping it is all a mistake as well...
Blogger kate, at 7/19/2006 10:23 PM  
OMG I'm so sorry! I would vote for a second opinion as well, just to be completely sure. Holy hell, Ann, I can't believe it. What else could possibly happen next? Big hugs and warm thoughts for you. If you want to rant, I'm here.
Blogger Julie, at 7/20/2006 12:20 AM  
I can't even really find words to express how sorry I am. This news, on top of everything else you've had dealt to you lately, must be so hard to even really accept. I hope some additional tests and possibly second opinions are something you can continue to pursue.

Many hugs...
Blogger SWH, at 7/20/2006 8:18 AM  
i am so sorry. you deserve a better result than this one. i hope there's still a better one out there for you.
Blogger laura, at 7/20/2006 8:30 AM  
I'm sorry...I don't remember...how long have you been without a period? Because this just doesn't sound right to me.

{{{hugs}}}
Blogger Catherine, at 7/20/2006 10:03 AM  
Oh fuck. This is unbelievable. I am so sorry Ann. I will grasp onto the hope that the next blood test will NOT confirm this result. Wow, I am so shocked and just so very sorry. Big (((hugs)))
Blogger Anam Cara, at 7/20/2006 11:12 AM  
What a terrible blow. I'm at a loss for words. I'm so sorry this has happened on top of everything else.
Blogger Lut C., at 7/20/2006 4:42 PM  
I am so sorry to hear this. You have been through too much. Not fair. Very very very not fair. I do hope that he is wrong.
Blogger Roxanne, at 7/20/2006 9:43 PM  
Oh God. I am so, so sorry. My heart is just aching right now. I agree with Lorem--it seems like you have definately been dealing with a huge amount of stress. I second (or third) her advice for another opinion.
Blogger Laura, at 7/21/2006 8:59 AM  
I'm so sorry! I don't have any idea what to say.
Blogger grumpyABDadjunct, at 7/21/2006 5:47 PM  
Oh my God...I can't - I don't even know what to say. This is cruelty at it's most potent and I'm sick for you.

I hope a second opinion gives you a very, very different answer.

((((((((((HUGS)))))))) I'm just so very, very sorry...
Blogger msfitzita, at 7/22/2006 12:35 PM  

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